Going Through Changes - Eminem 歌词及个人翻译
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 1]
Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for Delph, like Philly
最近，我感觉自己在孤身奋战，就像Philly那部电影一样
Feel like I'm losin' control of myself, I sincerely
感觉对自己失去了控制
Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complainin'
也许我听起来只是在抱怨
But life keeps on complicatin'
但是人生已经如此艰难
And I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
有时我会很想离这个世界而去
Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
连我的女儿都能看到我的悲痛
I try and hide it, but I can't
我曾尝试隐藏情绪，但我做不到
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty when inside I'm dyin'?
为什么在内在快要死掉的时候，我却表现的正巧相反？
I am finally realizin' I need help, I can't do it myself, too weak
最终我才意识到我需要他人的帮助，独自一人时总是太过软弱
Two weeks I've been havin' ups and downs
两周以来我的状态起起落落
Going through peaks and valleys
有过高峰期也有低谷
Dilly-dallyin' around with the idea of endin' the shit right here
每天都在考虑是不是干脆把这一切都结束掉算了
I'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors
我憎恨镜子中我的倒影，甚至把屋子里所有的镜子都打碎了
I can't stand what I look like, yeah
几乎不能忍受现在的状态
I look fat, but what do I care?
我知道我看起来很胖，但那又怎么样？
I give a fuck, only thing I fear is Hailie
我不在乎——而我唯一在乎的就是海莉（女儿）
I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her… shit
一旦我闭上眼就满脑子都是她……
[Hook]
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 2]
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
我把自己锁在卧室里或是卫生间，中午开始就昏昏欲睡
Yeah, Dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
是啊，爸爸心情不好，他总是冲你大吼大叫
Marshall, what happened that you
Marshall，你到底怎么了？
You can't stop with these pills?
你就不能不再多吃止痛药吗？
And you've fallen off with your skills
你赖以生存的技巧已经离你而去
And your own fans are laughin' at you
而你的粉丝正在毫不留情的嘲笑你
It becomes a problem you're too pussy to tackle?
这样下去根本不能解决任何问题
Get up, be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled
站起来！一个真正的男人才不会为这种事情困扰
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
我知道你兄弟的死亡让你心碎
They say Proof just flipped out
他们说Proof失去了理智
Homie just whipped out and bust
为此付出了生命的代价
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
嘿，我兄弟才不会那么干
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he fights first
他才不会开枪，因为他肯定会先用拳头！
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
但这些想法只会夜晚变得更加难熬
Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills
于是我给自己灌下了各种各样的止痛片
"Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it!"
“Eminem，你刚刚那段词简直酷爆了！”
Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes men
天杀的药贩子们恨不得对我唯命是从
And they gonna do whatever I says when I says it
就好像只要我开口，无论任何事情他们都能办到
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
我知道他们脑子里只有自己那点破钱
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend
可是我才失去了这辈子最好的朋友
So fuck it, I guess then—
所以去他妈的吧！
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 3]
My friends can't understand this new me
我的朋友们无法理解现在的我
That's understandable, man, but think how bananas you'd be
想想看吧，若你遭遇和我一样的境遇
You'd been animal too
也许你也会失去理智吧
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
如果你也为名声所困，就像在动物园里
And everybody's lookin' at you
像个珍惜动物一样被所有人围观
What you want me to do?
我又能干什么呢？
I'm startin' to live like a recluse
于是我开始如同隐居一般生活
And the truth is, fame startin' to give me an excuse
但事实是，这名气给了我一个借口
To be at an all-time low; I sit alone in my home theater
这样我就可以把自己锁在房间里，逃避现实
Watchin' the same damn DVD of the
不停得看着同一张DVD
First tour; the last tour, he was still alive
第一次巡演，还有最后一次，他还活着
And it hurts, so I fast forward
这些影片让我痛苦，于是就只好不停快进
Sleeping pills'll make me feel alright
只有安眠药能让我感觉好一点
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
如果半夜我仍然为此惊醒难以入眠
I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right
我就再多吃几片，没错，就是这样
I ain't slowin' down for no one
我不会为任何人放慢脚步
I am almost homeward bound
甚至有一次我在到家的时候
Almost ina coma, yeah, homie, c'mon, dole 'em out
几近昏迷，甚至感觉几乎就要这样死去
"Daddy, don't you die on me!
“爸爸，不要留下我一个人
Daddy, better hold your ground!"
一定要坚持住啊！“
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice?
靠，我怎么可能会不记得这个声音？
Yeah, baby, hold me down!
我听见了，宝贝，请抱紧我
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Verse 4]
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes
在医院醒来的时候，浑身上下插满了管子
But somehow I'm pullin' through
但我已经度过了最艰难的时刻
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
我保证，等身体康复了之后，我一定会变得更加坚强
I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few
只是为了Proof！所以我觉得我现在应该和说点事情
Facts, 'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
因为我也许再也没有机会说这些真心话了
Shit, it just hit me that, what if I would not've made it through?
嘿，如果我没有挺过来的话
I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you
那么这些埋在心底的话便不会见天日了
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
我从来没有好好表达过，所以我现在才得这么做
Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
Hailie, Whitney 还有Alaina
I still love your mother, that'll never change
我仍旧爱着你们的妈妈，这点永远不会改变
Think about her every day
每天都非常想念她
We just could never get it together, hey
但我们再也不会有机会在一起了
Wish there was a better way for me to say it
我多希望有一个更婉转的说法
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
但我用一切发誓，我仍愿意为她做任何事
There are just too many things to explain
有时候事情太多太杂难以解释得清楚
When it rains, guess it pours — yes, it does
因为这世界总是祸不单行
Wish there wasn't any pain, but I can't pretend there ain't
我希望过去从未有过痛苦，但痛苦确实存在
I ain't placin' any blame, I ain't pointin' fingers
我不会推脱责任也不会指责他人
Heaven knows I've never been a saint
老天爷知道，我从不是一个圣人
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
我知道我们挥霍掉了我们过去所拥有的一切
And just today I looked at your picture, almost as if to say
但今天我看到你的照片的时候，我才知道
I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
潜意识里我仍然想念你，真希望我们的感情没有结束得那么难看
But I just had to get away
但现在，这一切必须结束了
Don't know why, I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm—
我也不知道还有什么别的可说的了
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes
1. 副歌采样自《CHANGES》- OZZY OSBOURNE。是一首十分令人难过的歌，做这首歌的副歌意外的合适。令人感到有趣的是，Ozzy Osbourne的粉丝十分反感这首歌曲被说唱歌手采样，但他本人却对此毫无意见；
2. Delph: solo一次的俚语话，意味独自、单人；
3. Philly: 猜测是指1993年上映、名为《Philadelphia》的电影。影片讲述男主人公患上艾滋病被公司解雇，因为社会压力等各种原因，只能雇佣一个男同性恋兼职律师上诉原公司的故事。影片有很强烈的、被社会不认可的孤独感，用在这里应该是强调自己身上（亲友过世，与妻子离婚，争夺抚养权）的孤独感。同时，有一种卷烟牌子叫Philles，也许与rolling（卷）一词有双关意思；
我一直认为Recovery这张专辑的精髓其实是这首歌——即使他不是一单二单，没有那么大热，没有MV。从我最开始喜欢上Rap，喜欢上音乐本身，第一次让我在歌中体会到人生的B-Side的，就是这首歌。可是不仅如此，他不像他的第一张专辑里面仅仅是说"嘿，我们这样在社会底层挣扎求生的人用NSFW word向大家问好"，他还说，看，我辉煌过，跌倒了，可是我又爬起来了。
然后我们就可以在站起来之后说一声，去他妈的。
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